I figured out why I'm so scared of all this drama with guys, why I can't stand being single. I am afraid of going through life unloved. I'm scared of being alone and fading without leaving a footprint on something, someone. What's that movie where she says the thing about being a witness? Oh crap. Well, that. I need a rock. I'm crumbling without a foundation. I know what I need. Too bad he hates me.