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My life of late [23 Oct 2006|09:08pm]
[ mood | giggly ]

Frustration
Anger
Fear
Drama
Melancholy
Apprehension
Hope
Restlessness
Sleep
Busy
Warmth
Cold
Winning
Losing

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Oh my God, epiphany. [09 Oct 2006|07:53pm]
[ mood | utterly alone ]

I figured out why I'm so scared of all this drama with guys, why I can't stand being single. I am afraid of going through life unloved. I'm scared of being alone and fading without leaving a footprint on something, someone. What's that movie where she says the thing about being a witness? Oh crap. Well, that. I need a rock. I'm crumbling without a foundation. I know what I need. Too bad he hates me.

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Oh lj, how I've missed you... [09 Oct 2006|07:33pm]
So I don't know what my problem is lately. Boys are mean. Just because you have a stupid extra appendage doesn't mean you get to ruin the lives of every one around you. I don't know. Some people are just genuinely mean. It's scary to me how little I know about the people I think are my friends.

Anyways, I really feel like I have all of this crap bottled up and I can't unload it anywhere. My friends treat me like dirt, boys, well, that's out of the question, my family is oblivious to the fact that I am NOT a robot. What? Stephanie cares about something besides school and grades and GPA and college and the future and making us proud and validating our existence by succeeding? No, that's ridiculous. So, I bring my poor, pathetic existence to the interweb. Somebody notice me. Somebody hear me. Someone tell me it'll all be alright. But tell me quick. I can't do this alone much longer.
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Icky [06 Jul 2006|01:53pm]
Ifeelempty. I don't know what to do with myself. But it's like, I'm anticipating something. I don't know. I haven't been making much sense lately.
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YAY!!! [30 Apr 2006|03:23pm]
I like how some people pretend to be nice and virtuous people, when really, they're assholes just like the rest of us. In fact, they're even worse because they mask the stick up their ass with a pathetic attempt at faith. Well ya know what? Lick my big fat vagina. I am so fucking tired of feeling horrible for "what I did." Fuck that. No. After today, no more. What the hell?
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I had a pretty nice day... [22 Feb 2006|09:59pm]
[ mood | chipper ]

It was cool.

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Things I realized this weekend: [19 Feb 2006|07:31pm]
[ mood | happy ]

1. I like car trips
2. Hot chocolate is good for cold nights with no heater.
3. Boys secretly like chick flicks.
4. I like sleeping in different beds.
5. Going to bed at 2:30 and being RUDELY awakened at 9:00 is not cool.
6. Bisquits and gravy own my soul.
7. I thoroughly enjoy eighties music.
8. I also enjoy scary movies.
9. I'm the luckiest girl in the world.

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[14 Feb 2006|10:22pm]
[ mood | valentine-y ]

Darkness Falls is pretty much my favorite movie of all time. Happy Valentine's Day.

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YAY [07 Feb 2006|09:29pm]
[ mood | birthday ]

IT'S THE ANNIVERSARY OF THE DAY I WAS BORN! I think I might have the best friends in the history of the world. kiloveyoubuhbye.

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stupid rednecks [02 Feb 2006|11:17pm]
I was so mad today. I almost killed in Barker's class. Everyone is a freakin' racist. Ugh. Other than that, today was pretty good. Everybody knows that life can be wonderful. It's a soothing delight...

Oh I forgot:
Happy Groundhog Day!!
And...Mr. Nelson doesn't like Travis. I think it's hilarious.
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I am a girl. [30 Jan 2006|07:44pm]
I am so lucky. My stomach is in knots and I love it.
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i love you e.e. cummings. [29 Jan 2006|05:16pm]

:)Collapse )

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I get to play the triangle. [24 Jan 2006|11:13pm]
[ mood | happy ]

And I get to go to prom. And I get to play the triangle. And I am in love. But mostly, I get to play the triangle.

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LOL. We saw Mr. Fremin at Target. It was awesome. [22 Jan 2006|10:33pm]
today was pretty much the best day ever. i'm so lucky.
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cheer up, now you can put a marine on the "guys i dated" list. [18 Jan 2006|08:58pm]
[ mood | omfglame. ]

it'snotthateasy. i may get to learn to play the string bass. exciting. i'm afraid i'll suck, but that's just my inferiority complex. i really enjoy e.e. cummings. that's about it.

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rawr. this is my angry face [16 Jan 2006|09:33pm]
[ mood | nauseated ]

society and i are not on good terms. call it a lovers' spat.

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on being gay [12 Jan 2006|10:15pm]
travis: i am not gay.
me: how do you know you don't like it if you've never tried it?

l...o...l...ololol.
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[11 Jan 2006|09:45pm]
[ mood | crappy ]

today, dr. carlton said, "seventuplet," instead of "septuplet." that's pretty much the only good thing that happened.

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[10 Jan 2006|10:29pm]
[ mood | crushed ]

And it just gets better and better...Collapse )

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Today was great!! [10 Jan 2006|06:50pm]
[ mood | distressed ]

Except that I blew my college plans by three points. I still have yet to tell my parents, but I'm going to wait until the G-parents leave tomorrow.

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